Grieving and loss.

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Comment by Jen on August 2, 2008 at 7:53pm

hi there
when i joined this site i was hesitant to join this group.
i thought it could possibly jinx my future pregnancies.
i am in a same sex marriage and our ttc started in feb 2006....my wife decided she was going to try first...we did an at home "turkey baster" method, and got pregnant on the first try.
Riley was miscarried at 14 week...my little baby had no legs....
we decided to take time of from ttc....
i decided that i would try next with help of a fertility clinic after being told i would never have children.
i have only ttc twice, and got pregnant both times.
first time was jan 2008 where i miscarried triplets in feb 2008 at 5 weeks and 6 1/2 weeks.
i then tried again in june 2008 where i was diagnosed with an ectopic pregnancy at 7 weeks.
my levels had plateaued and they never did find out where the fetus was located on ultrasound, but they definatly did not find it in my uterus.
i was treated with methotrexate 115mg on wed july 30th.
because of this drug, i am not allowed to attempt to conceive again for at least 9 months to a year for fear of birth defects and what it could potentially do to me, there are negative side effects.
i will spend the next 9 months figuring out why i can't seem to hold onto a pregnancy.
i have defied everything they have told me that would or wouldn't happen.
i took this last pregnancy very very hard.
i did my cycle in june, did my insemination june 24th and got AF july 7-12...i started fertility meds again july 11... on july 19 i found out that i was pregnant.
i feel like we are being emotionally tortured and taunted with the only thing we desire for right now.....a family.
RIP Riley....my triplet beans.....and.....my latest little one.
your mommies will never forget you!

Comment by Nikkihope on July 22, 2008 at 10:04pm

Thanks Rachael! I will have to order one myself :)

Comment by My Little Bean.. on July 3, 2008 at 6:30pm

lost my baby had a miscarriage :( i will always love you baby

Comment by Rachael on June 29, 2008 at 7:26pm

My friend is making Angel Baby key chains and they are amazing and so sweet (and affordable!) If you want one, add her/message her! They're only $4 and that's with shipping. She's a super sweet girl! She's also willing to make customs if someone has something in particular that they want to remember their little ones with. I ordered one this morning and am waiting to get it.

http://www.myspace.com/angelbabies08

Comment by Rachael on May 10, 2008 at 5:13pm

what a great group, thanks for making it.

I had an unplanned pregnancy when I was 17 and miscarried. At the time I was told to be grateful and that it was better that I didn't have a baby at 17 while in High School so I haven't really had a chance to fully talk and grieve until recently. I blamed myself for years and I'm so glad to finally have people to talk to and found out that it wasn't anything that I did wrong.

Comment by Nikkihope on May 9, 2008 at 3:37pm

Just wondering how all the ladies in this group are doing?

Comment by Missing Destiny on May 6, 2008 at 3:31am

this is awesome thankyou so much... My Daughter Destiny Desire born alive at full term on Nov 15, 2007 but grew wings a few hours after...She was , is and will always be my Miracle Baby , the Love of my life, the best companion I have ever had.. 'till we meet again my Sleeping beauty... Mommy loves you for ever...

Comment by star101 on May 5, 2008 at 8:06pm

thanks for starting this group nikki

Comment by amaila on May 5, 2008 at 5:37pm

hi nikki

am trying to join your group but am new am having some difficulties at the moment , but will keep trying x

Comment by Nikkihope on May 5, 2008 at 5:01pm

I made this group for the women who have had a loss. So we can remember our angels and never forget them.

Destiny anna marie Smith m/c Nov.25th/07 at 6 weeks
Nathan William Smith conceived Dec.10th/07 m/c Feb.15th08 at 11 weeks.

You are gone but never forgotten

I will never forget you. See, Upon the palms of my hands I have written your name. 128 isaiah 49: 15-16