Finally Home

Well the vacation was amazing, if anyone is interested in looking at pictures you can find them here:
http://photobucket.com/TriptoOklahoma


I'm a little bummed today. When I started TTC there was a woman who's husband came home from deployment and that night got pregnant. She was the first person to get pregnant after I started trying. She gave birth yesterday to a beautiful healthy baby girl. I'm so happy for her, but I hurt so bad. If I had conceived my first try I'd have a baby right now. The other thing that has me down is that I'm now 5 weeks past my surgery and still haven't had a period. I'm now officially on CD 211. I was so sure I was going to ovulate on my own after the surgery, and I'm just really bummed that it doesn't look like I'm going to. Granted, I don't mind the fertility meds if it will help me conceive, I just wish I could have had something work right for once.

I'm struggling with being optimistic right now. I tell myself I'm not being pessimistic, but realistic. It just gets to be too much sometimes...and it's hard to think about happy things when you just want to throw your hands up and yell "what else do you have to throw at me?!?" I know it'll all work out, I do have faith in that, cause if you don't have faith then what do you have?